Saturday, September 09, 2006
for once, i hate my legs. my legs are giving me all sorts of problem for the whole day la. my calf muscles are aching lyk crazy and i keep having cramps. and i feel lyk im a cripple now. im walking lyk a cripple. crap. maybe i pia 2 hard for training liao and my body cannot take it? hais, maybe lah. who cares anyw. i die liao also no 1 will care.
not really feeling well 2day. didnt had much appetite during dinner and dun feel lyk eating. and when i went 2 study, i couldnt get any thing in2 my useless brain. oh well, i suppose tt is a symptom of suffering from the disease stupid-ness bah? yeah.
i suppose that there are many stages in tt disease. and i think im in the late stages of it. cannot be helped liao. hopeless le. chop off tt retarded and useless brain jiu can liao. disease cured! =) haha i guess that would be the most memorable ending and every1 would be happy. i guess with or without me in this world, there isnt much of a difference rite? yeah, i dunno y my mum gave birth 2 me. im not fit 2 live in this complicated world. a world which is full of jealousy, betrayals and backstabbing. i guess i would prefer something which is not so complicated. i cant live in this type of world. yeah off i go. Bye ppl
shd i slit my wrist or shd i jump off a high storey building? u guys choose for me the way that i deserve to die bah. my fate lies in u ppl hands. treasure it. giv me a proper death. at least make me happy for once. . .i would be very thankful 2 u guys. evn though i might hate some of u before this. but at least make a choice that would really put a smile on my face. i guess tts the most memorable ending i, sean teo, would have. i wanna be happy. at least happy evn when i come to the end of my 13 yrs of life in darkness. . .
not really feeling well 2day. didnt had much appetite during dinner and dun feel lyk eating. and when i went 2 study, i couldnt get any thing in2 my useless brain. oh well, i suppose tt is a symptom of suffering from the disease stupid-ness bah? yeah.
i suppose that there are many stages in tt disease. and i think im in the late stages of it. cannot be helped liao. hopeless le. chop off tt retarded and useless brain jiu can liao. disease cured! =) haha i guess that would be the most memorable ending and every1 would be happy. i guess with or without me in this world, there isnt much of a difference rite? yeah, i dunno y my mum gave birth 2 me. im not fit 2 live in this complicated world. a world which is full of jealousy, betrayals and backstabbing. i guess i would prefer something which is not so complicated. i cant live in this type of world. yeah off i go. Bye ppl
shd i slit my wrist or shd i jump off a high storey building? u guys choose for me the way that i deserve to die bah. my fate lies in u ppl hands. treasure it. giv me a proper death. at least make me happy for once. . .i would be very thankful 2 u guys. evn though i might hate some of u before this. but at least make a choice that would really put a smile on my face. i guess tts the most memorable ending i, sean teo, would have. i wanna be happy. at least happy evn when i come to the end of my 13 yrs of life in darkness. . .