Saturday, September 29, 2007
today is the last day of lessons. ):
im sure gna miss ALL THE TEACHERS that taught us for the past 2 years that ive been in dhs 2b. ):
ms yeo. mr lim. mrs wong. mr tan. wu lao shi. ms ng ):
they're the ones who in a way turned me from a childish and immature kid to a much different one now. they are the ones who helped me when i do not uds anything. esp mr lim and mr tan. they come to our class and give us remedials and supplementary. if not for these two teachers, i wont be doing that well for my both subjects for this term. i had missed alot of lessons due to nationals. yeah. so special thanks to MR SHAWN LIM :D and Mr TAN :D
AND ALSO MS YEO. maybe it was her who inspired me to change my attitude. when my hair got cut, i simply scolded ***** at a teacher who still picks on me. Miss yeo heard it and obviously reprimanded me. but in a good way too. she told me the cons of having such an attitude problem and so and so. from then on, i heed her advice and i think im a better person now, compared to 3 mths ago, when i just shoot words without thinking the consequences. THANKS MISS YEO (:
and not forgetting other teachers too. like mrs wong, wu lao shi, and ms ng. mrs wong is simply bringing joy to the normal boring history lessons. she never fails to entertain the class. she's just too nice. [: and wulaoshi too. although she can be a little too picky at times, but it's jst for our own good isnt it? :D ms ng too. she didnt give up on our class as we were always very noisy during geog lessons. she patiently revised with us everything and gives us some tips too. well. teachers makes a student who he/she is (:
and once again, thank you teachers for all that u've given me for the past 2 years. im very grateful to it and im gna work ahrd and ace my exams to do yall proud. (:
im sure gna miss ALL THE TEACHERS that taught us for the past 2 years that ive been in dhs 2b. ):
ms yeo. mr lim. mrs wong. mr tan. wu lao shi. ms ng ):
they're the ones who in a way turned me from a childish and immature kid to a much different one now. they are the ones who helped me when i do not uds anything. esp mr lim and mr tan. they come to our class and give us remedials and supplementary. if not for these two teachers, i wont be doing that well for my both subjects for this term. i had missed alot of lessons due to nationals. yeah. so special thanks to MR SHAWN LIM :D and Mr TAN :D
AND ALSO MS YEO. maybe it was her who inspired me to change my attitude. when my hair got cut, i simply scolded ***** at a teacher who still picks on me. Miss yeo heard it and obviously reprimanded me. but in a good way too. she told me the cons of having such an attitude problem and so and so. from then on, i heed her advice and i think im a better person now, compared to 3 mths ago, when i just shoot words without thinking the consequences. THANKS MISS YEO (:
and not forgetting other teachers too. like mrs wong, wu lao shi, and ms ng. mrs wong is simply bringing joy to the normal boring history lessons. she never fails to entertain the class. she's just too nice. [: and wulaoshi too. although she can be a little too picky at times, but it's jst for our own good isnt it? :D ms ng too. she didnt give up on our class as we were always very noisy during geog lessons. she patiently revised with us everything and gives us some tips too. well. teachers makes a student who he/she is (:
and once again, thank you teachers for all that u've given me for the past 2 years. im very grateful to it and im gna work ahrd and ace my exams to do yall proud. (:
Friday, September 28, 2007
last day of lessons. it was a sad one though.
i almost cried during maths. shant go into details. :X
mr lim is simply such a wonderful guy. and i srsly hopes his child will be like him too. if his child can be my friend, i'll be delighted. LOL. thats crap though. :D
last day of lessons. it was 4 periods of killing LA. but it kinda fulfilled my knowledge of TKAM. plus some notes, confidence of scoring well for LA ppr 1 is high. yay :D
geog was okay. ms ng allowed us to do our geog revision. and i merely just started. gotta buck up if not im so gna srsly die. :/
mr tan finished up on colours of light and thats the end of physics. well, science is the last paper. so i've ample time to revise on it. bio is one problem though. i suck at it lah. zzz.
and maths. mr lim went through with us qudaratic graphs and gave us a sheet of the DO's and DONT's for our maths paper. i must do well for my maths paper and show him that a piece of shit in 2006 has changed in 2007 (:
jiayou to everyone for their exams and all the best. (:
treasure whatever you have before it's too late. this had happened many times on me ):
i almost cried during maths. shant go into details. :X
mr lim is simply such a wonderful guy. and i srsly hopes his child will be like him too. if his child can be my friend, i'll be delighted. LOL. thats crap though. :D
last day of lessons. it was 4 periods of killing LA. but it kinda fulfilled my knowledge of TKAM. plus some notes, confidence of scoring well for LA ppr 1 is high. yay :D
geog was okay. ms ng allowed us to do our geog revision. and i merely just started. gotta buck up if not im so gna srsly die. :/
mr tan finished up on colours of light and thats the end of physics. well, science is the last paper. so i've ample time to revise on it. bio is one problem though. i suck at it lah. zzz.
and maths. mr lim went through with us qudaratic graphs and gave us a sheet of the DO's and DONT's for our maths paper. i must do well for my maths paper and show him that a piece of shit in 2006 has changed in 2007 (:
jiayou to everyone for their exams and all the best. (:
treasure whatever you have before it's too late. this had happened many times on me ):
Monday, September 24, 2007
TODAY'S MONDAY. and it sucked. :/
hahs. music assesment was kinda okay. im gna miss the mr kew. i like his adidas shoe. LOL.
and wu lao shi was super kind today. i told her that i misunderstood that we're supposed to write zuowen and in the end didnt study for chinese test. SO, she decided to postpone the test to wednesday. woohoo:D
i shall study hard for the test and not let her dwn -_- that doesnt sound like sean does it? o.O hahas. chinese lesson for the first time wasnt boring. mwahahas. :D
ms ng was real pissed when we told her to upload the oil palm plantation ppt slides. :/ sorry ms ng ): haha.
and darick and daren were being very kind souls. i merely went back to school and return peishan her exercise book, and they pangseh me and go play soccer. zzzzzz. stupiaks. hahs.
theres pe tmr. bawring.
and it's 6 days to exams. not counting tday. uh ohs.
hahs. music assesment was kinda okay. im gna miss the mr kew. i like his adidas shoe. LOL.
and wu lao shi was super kind today. i told her that i misunderstood that we're supposed to write zuowen and in the end didnt study for chinese test. SO, she decided to postpone the test to wednesday. woohoo:D
i shall study hard for the test and not let her dwn -_- that doesnt sound like sean does it? o.O hahas. chinese lesson for the first time wasnt boring. mwahahas. :D
ms ng was real pissed when we told her to upload the oil palm plantation ppt slides. :/ sorry ms ng ): haha.
and darick and daren were being very kind souls. i merely went back to school and return peishan her exercise book, and they pangseh me and go play soccer. zzzzzz. stupiaks. hahs.
theres pe tmr. bawring.
and it's 6 days to exams. not counting tday. uh ohs.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
haha. mid autmun celebration was bawring. the mooncakes that van and cas made was nice lahrs(: didnt taste as horrible as i thought. HOHO. :D oh well, ytd was a very tiring day. balled from 2-5plus. i had super pinky cheeks when i reached home lahrs. LOL.
yeah and ytd was friday. meaning? another week gone. it's nine days to exams? oh no. ): im so not prepared for it lahrs. die alr lahs ): i'd better buck up and stop going online so often. zzz. sometimes temptations are hard to control. hahs. sian.
i shall go and do maths. byebye.
and im sorry yingying. i dont mean it ):
yeah and ytd was friday. meaning? another week gone. it's nine days to exams? oh no. ): im so not prepared for it lahrs. die alr lahs ): i'd better buck up and stop going online so often. zzz. sometimes temptations are hard to control. hahs. sian.
i shall go and do maths. byebye.
and im sorry yingying. i dont mean it ):
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
arghhhhs. i was so right. when going to hall for interaction period, i told daren. i'll be happy if my first number for my maths test is 3. i'll fume if i get 29.5. guess what. in the end, i really got 29.5. *&#^*DYIEFY
im like so accurate. if i say i get 40 will i get 40? hahas nah that wont happen. too stupiakkk. HAHA. oh well, it's still a A if converted to 100% :D but. still kinda sucky though.
i miss my pocky ): ahaha.
yay jst finished congruent assignments and 1 gong han. shall proceed to mock a bird later. ah damn man. after tmr it's gna be 11 more days to eoy. omgggggggg. im kinda screwed./ i havent touch geog and history yet. :/
im very screwed woohoo:D
vballed with daren and joyce tday. woots it was fun. even though i ran like some mad person for the ball. AHA. -.- a way to relax luhs. if not very stresssssss. LOL -_- mr tan says i need to discharge some of my energy in my body. too hyped up le. LOL.
i seem to be posting everyday. o.o hahas. okay im back to work. goodbye(:
today's a nice day (:
im like so accurate. if i say i get 40 will i get 40? hahas nah that wont happen. too stupiakkk. HAHA. oh well, it's still a A if converted to 100% :D but. still kinda sucky though.
i miss my pocky ): ahaha.
yay jst finished congruent assignments and 1 gong han. shall proceed to mock a bird later. ah damn man. after tmr it's gna be 11 more days to eoy. omgggggggg. im kinda screwed./ i havent touch geog and history yet. :/
im very screwed woohoo:D
vballed with daren and joyce tday. woots it was fun. even though i ran like some mad person for the ball. AHA. -.- a way to relax luhs. if not very stresssssss. LOL -_- mr tan says i need to discharge some of my energy in my body. too hyped up le. LOL.
i seem to be posting everyday. o.o hahas. okay im back to work. goodbye(:
today's a nice day (:
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
sian. jst completed the set theory quiz.
and it was so omfgxzxzxz gay -_- aha.
oh well. mr lim say we're gna get back our maths ppr tmr. :/
im worried. i left the trapezium qn and the set theory qn blank. tts i think 3 or 4 marks gone? die. :/ haha.
did not bad for science. 21/25 :D and as usual, ron topped the class. oh (*#I$&^&*@#^ zzz.
tmr is wednesday. oh damnit. zzzzzzzzz. bawring day. i shall go back to mock a bird.
it's quite boring to do so.
im falling aslp.
falsehopessrslykilledme.inanhour'stime, it'sofficallyamth.
okaynotyet. hahs. ihopeyoucouldtreatmelikehowyoutreatyourfriends.
andnottreatmelikeatotalstranger
and it was so omfgxzxzxz gay -_- aha.
oh well. mr lim say we're gna get back our maths ppr tmr. :/
im worried. i left the trapezium qn and the set theory qn blank. tts i think 3 or 4 marks gone? die. :/ haha.
did not bad for science. 21/25 :D and as usual, ron topped the class. oh (*#I$&^&*@#^ zzz.
tmr is wednesday. oh damnit. zzzzzzzzz. bawring day. i shall go back to mock a bird.
it's quite boring to do so.
im falling aslp.
Monday, September 17, 2007
drawn against 2H and 2K for interclass.
gg. i dont wna play. lets get thrashed. woohoos.
oh wells. 13moredaystoeoys. cant stand the temptation of using com.
didnt wna use tday. but mum was using it for some stuffs and i was tempted. and i landed on the com table agn -_-
sians. today's a bad day.
and i reckoned tmr will be an even worse one. goodbye. iloveyou.
gg. i dont wna play. lets get thrashed. woohoos.
oh wells. 13moredaystoeoys. cant stand the temptation of using com.
didnt wna use tday. but mum was using it for some stuffs and i was tempted. and i landed on the com table agn -_-
sians. today's a bad day.
and i reckoned tmr will be an even worse one. goodbye. iloveyou.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
boo! [: saturdays and sundays suck for me. unless i go out. if not i will wake up and watch teevee, eat lunch and go back to slp agn. so unproductive -_- it's exam period! and i shdnt sleeeeeeeep. but oh well. i jst cant stand the temptation of the bed. it's too great :/
the only productive thing tday is that i read tkam, i bio-ed -.- i mean i copied bio notes. and im still in the process of doing so. shall take a breather by posting :D
there are SO MANY topics to copy for bio notes. i think i wont be able to finish all of them tday. shall finish them up by tmr. and return the book to peishan [: electromagnetic spectrum is damn gay. X rays have a higher energy level than ultraviolet ray -_- ok. tt was random. hahaha.
i love my notebook man. it contains so many colourful notes. colours are love. mwaha.
well. im still having a bad cough and flu. it's better tday anw. my nose is back to it's original position. managed to superglue it back. mwaha. =/
plants are so cool. they have xylem and phloem cells. why dont we have? and why dont we have chlorophyll(sp?)? then we can make food! haha aint tt so cool. [:
okay i shall contd copying my notes [: byebye.
love.
thankyou(:
the only productive thing tday is that i read tkam, i bio-ed -.- i mean i copied bio notes. and im still in the process of doing so. shall take a breather by posting :D
there are SO MANY topics to copy for bio notes. i think i wont be able to finish all of them tday. shall finish them up by tmr. and return the book to peishan [: electromagnetic spectrum is damn gay. X rays have a higher energy level than ultraviolet ray -_- ok. tt was random. hahaha.
i love my notebook man. it contains so many colourful notes. colours are love. mwaha.
well. im still having a bad cough and flu. it's better tday anw. my nose is back to it's original position. managed to superglue it back. mwaha. =/
plants are so cool. they have xylem and phloem cells. why dont we have? and why dont we have chlorophyll(sp?)? then we can make food! haha aint tt so cool. [:
okay i shall contd copying my notes [: byebye.
love.
thankyou(:
Friday, September 14, 2007
okay. this week past exceptionally FAST. oh well that means another week has passed and 3 weeks are left to the prestigious END OF YEAR PAPER. woohoo. and there's only 2 weeks for preparations. yeah. preparations to die. .___.
oh well. my day had been COMPLETELY BAD tday. literally bad. it all started with me coughing out blood in the morning. oh thats so disgusting :X hahaa. and sneezing and sneezing non-stop. i think ive used thousands over tissues. :X waste ppr. LOL. science test didnt helped much. surely got two qns wrong alr. didnt see the question properly. zz.
oh well what made my day was actually my soft toys :X seeing cute stuffs, sure makes a person smile, no matter how down you are. to all emo ppl: get a soft toy NOW! :D hahaha. if only they can take my place and go take exams. i bet i'll score exceptionally well. :D hahaha.
bowling at msquare tday. pretty sucky. was completely off form. 6+bucks gone. zzz. still owe peishan 5. haha. nevermind. i can take my time and pay her. she wont mind. hor peishan? (: hehs.
msquare was completely bad. my nose seemed to be dropping off any moment, and i srsly cant stand it when i jst cant stop sneezing and sneezing. well. combination of flu and cough sure is more 'deadly'., compared to cancer -_- well im being lame. haaa.
ok im off to bed now. it has been a VERY tiring week zzzz. hope to see you guys in my dreams. BYE. takecare of yourselves. dont end up like me ._. (:
love yall (:
immuchmorehapppiertoday.
oh well. my day had been COMPLETELY BAD tday. literally bad. it all started with me coughing out blood in the morning. oh thats so disgusting :X hahaa. and sneezing and sneezing non-stop. i think ive used thousands over tissues. :X waste ppr. LOL. science test didnt helped much. surely got two qns wrong alr. didnt see the question properly. zz.
oh well what made my day was actually my soft toys :X seeing cute stuffs, sure makes a person smile, no matter how down you are. to all emo ppl: get a soft toy NOW! :D hahaha. if only they can take my place and go take exams. i bet i'll score exceptionally well. :D hahaha.
bowling at msquare tday. pretty sucky. was completely off form. 6+bucks gone. zzz. still owe peishan 5. haha. nevermind. i can take my time and pay her. she wont mind. hor peishan? (: hehs.
msquare was completely bad. my nose seemed to be dropping off any moment, and i srsly cant stand it when i jst cant stop sneezing and sneezing. well. combination of flu and cough sure is more 'deadly'., compared to cancer -_- well im being lame. haaa.
ok im off to bed now. it has been a VERY tiring week zzzz. hope to see you guys in my dreams. BYE. takecare of yourselves. dont end up like me ._. (:
love yall (:
Thursday, September 13, 2007
BLAH. MATHS COMMON TEST 4 WAS SCREWED. okay but not as screwed as CT3. but i retardedly left a set theory question blank -_____- i know how do one lahs! and i also left 1 part of the trapezium qn blank. i tot there'll be enough time for me to finish. but the last question took me plenty of time. and i wrote 3.87 as 3.88. zzzzzzz. my hopes of getting 30 and abv is dashed. :/
but. it's over. good. next up's science. oh well. hope can score as well as the previous one. but i dont think i will lahs. my waves suck. and physics will jst get harder and harder. blah. -bang-
zzzzzzzz. i shall go read tkam. bye.
27 more days to freedom [:
ijstwannabebyurside.willihavethechancetodosoonceagain?
but. it's over. good. next up's science. oh well. hope can score as well as the previous one. but i dont think i will lahs. my waves suck. and physics will jst get harder and harder. blah. -bang-
zzzzzzzz. i shall go read tkam. bye.
27 more days to freedom [:
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
blahblahblah. maths test tmr :/ im not gna screw it up. im gna get 40 out of 40. right. zzz.
haha i's gna be another tough fight between ron and vanessa agn. who's gna get the highest this time? lets bet. i say.. vanessa :D LOL.
sians after tmr i shall mug science. one day of revision shd be enough lahs. i vaugely rmb the valency thingy. zzzz. chem eqns i shall screw ur ass. X: haha.
i feeel damn noob in maths. daniel, weeleng, mengying taught me the pyramid thing and i finally understood after a long long period of time -_-. i made jovina taught me trigo -.- everyone says both topics are easy. but i find it hard ZZZ. good game. LOL.
sian. i dwan join interclass. neither do the 3Ds. neither do the gays. HOW. ):
ihopetoholdyourhandonceagn.couldyougivemethatchance?
haha i's gna be another tough fight between ron and vanessa agn. who's gna get the highest this time? lets bet. i say.. vanessa :D LOL.
sians after tmr i shall mug science. one day of revision shd be enough lahs. i vaugely rmb the valency thingy. zzzz. chem eqns i shall screw ur ass. X: haha.
i feeel damn noob in maths. daniel, weeleng, mengying taught me the pyramid thing and i finally understood after a long long period of time -_-. i made jovina taught me trigo -.- everyone says both topics are easy. but i find it hard ZZZ. good game. LOL.
sian. i dwan join interclass. neither do the 3Ds. neither do the gays. HOW. ):
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
okay ive finally finished with my history. damn irritating lahs.
thanks jovina (:
okay. todays. sept11! means. 19 more days to eoys. oh crap. screwed.
my mum's pissed that i dont sleep at night and sleep when i come home. zzz.
she's weird. never mind. can study can liao.
wow. 2 more days to maths CT4. helpsheet not done yet. revision not done yet. havent buy french curve. one word: DIE.
next up is science. damnit. havent touched science for very long alr. think im kinda screwed. shall not slp tonight. agn. zzz.
argh. sian lahs. ): i hate exams. it's jst so fucked up. blah.
random pic.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Tell me why on earth am i doing here! tsktsk.
im suppose to study. every minute of work counts now. :X
sounds nerd? well. tday in school was a peaceful one. i didnt bother to go near to any mirror, not even a toilet one. LOL. yeah. my hair is. too horrible. zz.
sians. i went online jst to download stuffs from asknlearn. and i ended up chatting. and now. blogging. how grreat. helpsheet not done -_- lucky test postpone. if not i srsly die. :/
science on friday. even worse :/ end of yrs in 20 days time. good game. rawr.
ok bye ppl. back to work.
youreignoringmeonceagainandihateithais
im suppose to study. every minute of work counts now. :X
sounds nerd? well. tday in school was a peaceful one. i didnt bother to go near to any mirror, not even a toilet one. LOL. yeah. my hair is. too horrible. zz.
sians. i went online jst to download stuffs from asknlearn. and i ended up chatting. and now. blogging. how grreat. helpsheet not done -_- lucky test postpone. if not i srsly die. :/
science on friday. even worse :/ end of yrs in 20 days time. good game. rawr.
ok bye ppl. back to work.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
ok sian. i shd be studying aint i?
well. blog is so tempting and com is so seductive.
maths helpsheet waiting for me to fill in the blanks.
science worksheet waiting for me to complete.
portfoilio waiting for miss yeo to skin me alive. (saw her at tcc ytd -_-. scary encounter)
geog worksheet not done and supposed to hand in tmr. die.
chinese jianbao not finished. heck.
hsitory assignment? not done :/
oh man so screwed/ and tmr marks the start of death days. tuesday is maths test. friday is science. and 3 wks later eoy start. oh damn. today's 9th. 21 more days? damnit. oh and happy birthday laura (: haha.
and im doing portfolio now. damn. it's effing gay. sian.
everything isnt done. evrything is screwed.
it's time for sha to deliver the coffin to me.
zzz;
well. blog is so tempting and com is so seductive.
maths helpsheet waiting for me to fill in the blanks.
science worksheet waiting for me to complete.
portfoilio waiting for miss yeo to skin me alive. (saw her at tcc ytd -_-. scary encounter)
geog worksheet not done and supposed to hand in tmr. die.
chinese jianbao not finished. heck.
hsitory assignment? not done :/
oh man so screwed/ and tmr marks the start of death days. tuesday is maths test. friday is science. and 3 wks later eoy start. oh damn. today's 9th. 21 more days? damnit. oh and happy birthday laura (: haha.
and im doing portfolio now. damn. it's effing gay. sian.
everything isnt done. evrything is screwed.
it's time for sha to deliver the coffin to me.
zzz;
Saturday, September 08, 2007
okay. rawr. rat show tmr :D
mugging tmr too.
sian. i think im gna die. 23 more days to eoys.
how fast is that. count it yourself.
get a shock? i got it jst now.
damn. so dead.
tell me to go offline when u see me online.
coz i'll do useless thigns except for reading tkam at sparknotes.
damn. maths helpsheet not done. science revision not done. tkam 10 chapters covered only. history assignment not done. geog eoy practice not done. chinese jian bao fuck off. zzz.
rat show tmr. say yay. :D well after that will be some serious study.
wish me all the best.
for sha it's gna buy me a coffin soon.
but she's away at camp. zz.
jiayous sean.
o2jam in school cant dl patch. sians. and iris and bryan cant install the programme. mwahaa. ms huang was so nice. and i finished the sci online research ws. iris was merely copying. haha.
well. it's time for me to get on my emo bed. and turn on the flames of emotional nights.
18/8 to now. every night's getting harder for me to go through. an sms doesnt get back replies. ive never thought of giving up. i thought perserverance will pay off. but it doesnt seem that way now. has everything been washed down the drain? has those memories erased and thrown into a far far place inside you? i certainly hope thats not the way. for ive been hoping that a miracle will happen. but maybe it wont happen. it needs both parties to compromise. one isnt enough to salvage it. i certainly feel like ending my life this moment right now. the stress of exams, the times that were so unforgettable flashing through my mind, the happiness that was lost due to some fucking no link reason. i really cant take it anymore. the smile that u see on my face isnt always that real. if yknow the other side of me, the lonely one, then you'll get what i mean. if someone could just kill me now, i'll certainly be grateful. i dont want to contd these pointless life anymore. it hurts more and more as the days goes by. whatever i do will only get back a negative effect and makes things even worse. in poeple's eyes, im jst a nobody that interfers into people' s life and irritating them. so why carry on. i dont see a point. and i can forsee a party to be held when my funeral ends. well, thats just sean. the one and hated to the core sean. a stab in the heart. a headshot or whatever. i jst wanna end this whole thing now. it's very tough and i cant hold on anymore. it has been 21 days.
if i say that in your eyes, im jst a nobody, i think im right? i dont know. i hope it isnt that way. tell me it isnt that way alright. i can change. from top to toe. maybe your heart belongs to another person alr, but for me, it will always contain you. i mean it. maybe the trust is alr gone, but evryth's not lost. i'll just keep going on. but one day, i'll just collapse.
iloveyouandyouknowit
mugging tmr too.
sian. i think im gna die. 23 more days to eoys.
how fast is that. count it yourself.
get a shock? i got it jst now.
damn. so dead.
tell me to go offline when u see me online.
coz i'll do useless thigns except for reading tkam at sparknotes.
damn. maths helpsheet not done. science revision not done. tkam 10 chapters covered only. history assignment not done. geog eoy practice not done. chinese jian bao fuck off. zzz.
rat show tmr. say yay. :D well after that will be some serious study.
wish me all the best.
for sha it's gna buy me a coffin soon.
but she's away at camp. zz.
jiayous sean.
o2jam in school cant dl patch. sians. and iris and bryan cant install the programme. mwahaa. ms huang was so nice. and i finished the sci online research ws. iris was merely copying. haha.
well. it's time for me to get on my emo bed. and turn on the flames of emotional nights.
18/8 to now. every night's getting harder for me to go through. an sms doesnt get back replies. ive never thought of giving up. i thought perserverance will pay off. but it doesnt seem that way now. has everything been washed down the drain? has those memories erased and thrown into a far far place inside you? i certainly hope thats not the way. for ive been hoping that a miracle will happen. but maybe it wont happen. it needs both parties to compromise. one isnt enough to salvage it. i certainly feel like ending my life this moment right now. the stress of exams, the times that were so unforgettable flashing through my mind, the happiness that was lost due to some fucking no link reason. i really cant take it anymore. the smile that u see on my face isnt always that real. if yknow the other side of me, the lonely one, then you'll get what i mean. if someone could just kill me now, i'll certainly be grateful. i dont want to contd these pointless life anymore. it hurts more and more as the days goes by. whatever i do will only get back a negative effect and makes things even worse. in poeple's eyes, im jst a nobody that interfers into people' s life and irritating them. so why carry on. i dont see a point. and i can forsee a party to be held when my funeral ends. well, thats just sean. the one and hated to the core sean. a stab in the heart. a headshot or whatever. i jst wanna end this whole thing now. it's very tough and i cant hold on anymore. it has been 21 days.
if i say that in your eyes, im jst a nobody, i think im right? i dont know. i hope it isnt that way. tell me it isnt that way alright. i can change. from top to toe. maybe your heart belongs to another person alr, but for me, it will always contain you. i mean it. maybe the trust is alr gone, but evryth's not lost. i'll just keep going on. but one day, i'll just collapse.
Friday, September 07, 2007
in school com lab now zzz. supposed to do some science stuff. but oh well. cant be bothered hahaha. bryn asked me to remove the phto lahs. sians.
science sucks. wave here wave there. F*** X:sian. and iris is dling o2jam now -.-
damn. zzz.
off to work. bye.
get me a chopper/penknife/gun/knife. and i'll loveyou.
science sucks. wave here wave there. F*** X:sian. and iris is dling o2jam now -.-
damn. zzz.
off to work. bye.
get me a chopper/penknife/gun/knife. and i'll loveyou.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
booo. revision hasnt been on track. lagging behind by alot :/ ive got no mood to study! tsktsk. sian lahs.
esplanade with iris, jiayun and bryan was incredible. haha. iris cheated bryan almsot 10 bucks. woohoo. :D and now bryan owes me money. mwaha. and bowling after that was suck. i got 103 for the 1st and 98 for the 2nd :/ i know it sucked. hahaha.
well. i removed that photo due to restrictions D: wahaha.
-.-
ivegotnthelsemoretosay.
esplanade with iris, jiayun and bryan was incredible. haha. iris cheated bryan almsot 10 bucks. woohoo. :D and now bryan owes me money. mwaha. and bowling after that was suck. i got 103 for the 1st and 98 for the 2nd :/ i know it sucked. hahaha.
well. i removed that photo due to restrictions D: wahaha.
-.-
ivegotnthelsemoretosay.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
hoi. well. mugging hadnt been a real success these few days. ytd was more of sianning rather than mug. today maybe is better. but it's more of stone and piss. rawr. well. bryan says jesslyn has completed geog science and maths. and thats freaking. pro. zzzz.
im jst stuck at maths. alyson did chem bio and maths. wow. peiying did bio and maths. gawd. the rest i dont know alr. zzz. all so pro lahs i think i die alr man. zzz.
im off to mug/sleep. nights ppl.
youknowidontwant ):
im jst stuck at maths. alyson did chem bio and maths. wow. peiying did bio and maths. gawd. the rest i dont know alr. zzz. all so pro lahs i think i die alr man. zzz.
im off to mug/sleep. nights ppl.
youknowidontwant ):