Saturday, September 08, 2007
okay. rawr. rat show tmr :D
mugging tmr too.
sian. i think im gna die. 23 more days to eoys.
how fast is that. count it yourself.
get a shock? i got it jst now.
damn. so dead.
tell me to go offline when u see me online.
coz i'll do useless thigns except for reading tkam at sparknotes.
damn. maths helpsheet not done. science revision not done. tkam 10 chapters covered only. history assignment not done. geog eoy practice not done. chinese jian bao fuck off. zzz.
rat show tmr. say yay. :D well after that will be some serious study.
wish me all the best.
for sha it's gna buy me a coffin soon.
but she's away at camp. zz.
jiayous sean.
o2jam in school cant dl patch. sians. and iris and bryan cant install the programme. mwahaa. ms huang was so nice. and i finished the sci online research ws. iris was merely copying. haha.
well. it's time for me to get on my emo bed. and turn on the flames of emotional nights.
18/8 to now. every night's getting harder for me to go through. an sms doesnt get back replies. ive never thought of giving up. i thought perserverance will pay off. but it doesnt seem that way now. has everything been washed down the drain? has those memories erased and thrown into a far far place inside you? i certainly hope thats not the way. for ive been hoping that a miracle will happen. but maybe it wont happen. it needs both parties to compromise. one isnt enough to salvage it. i certainly feel like ending my life this moment right now. the stress of exams, the times that were so unforgettable flashing through my mind, the happiness that was lost due to some fucking no link reason. i really cant take it anymore. the smile that u see on my face isnt always that real. if yknow the other side of me, the lonely one, then you'll get what i mean. if someone could just kill me now, i'll certainly be grateful. i dont want to contd these pointless life anymore. it hurts more and more as the days goes by. whatever i do will only get back a negative effect and makes things even worse. in poeple's eyes, im jst a nobody that interfers into people' s life and irritating them. so why carry on. i dont see a point. and i can forsee a party to be held when my funeral ends. well, thats just sean. the one and hated to the core sean. a stab in the heart. a headshot or whatever. i jst wanna end this whole thing now. it's very tough and i cant hold on anymore. it has been 21 days.
if i say that in your eyes, im jst a nobody, i think im right? i dont know. i hope it isnt that way. tell me it isnt that way alright. i can change. from top to toe. maybe your heart belongs to another person alr, but for me, it will always contain you. i mean it. maybe the trust is alr gone, but evryth's not lost. i'll just keep going on. but one day, i'll just collapse.
iloveyouandyouknowit
mugging tmr too.
sian. i think im gna die. 23 more days to eoys.
how fast is that. count it yourself.
get a shock? i got it jst now.
damn. so dead.
tell me to go offline when u see me online.
coz i'll do useless thigns except for reading tkam at sparknotes.
damn. maths helpsheet not done. science revision not done. tkam 10 chapters covered only. history assignment not done. geog eoy practice not done. chinese jian bao fuck off. zzz.
rat show tmr. say yay. :D well after that will be some serious study.
wish me all the best.
for sha it's gna buy me a coffin soon.
but she's away at camp. zz.
jiayous sean.
o2jam in school cant dl patch. sians. and iris and bryan cant install the programme. mwahaa. ms huang was so nice. and i finished the sci online research ws. iris was merely copying. haha.
well. it's time for me to get on my emo bed. and turn on the flames of emotional nights.
18/8 to now. every night's getting harder for me to go through. an sms doesnt get back replies. ive never thought of giving up. i thought perserverance will pay off. but it doesnt seem that way now. has everything been washed down the drain? has those memories erased and thrown into a far far place inside you? i certainly hope thats not the way. for ive been hoping that a miracle will happen. but maybe it wont happen. it needs both parties to compromise. one isnt enough to salvage it. i certainly feel like ending my life this moment right now. the stress of exams, the times that were so unforgettable flashing through my mind, the happiness that was lost due to some fucking no link reason. i really cant take it anymore. the smile that u see on my face isnt always that real. if yknow the other side of me, the lonely one, then you'll get what i mean. if someone could just kill me now, i'll certainly be grateful. i dont want to contd these pointless life anymore. it hurts more and more as the days goes by. whatever i do will only get back a negative effect and makes things even worse. in poeple's eyes, im jst a nobody that interfers into people' s life and irritating them. so why carry on. i dont see a point. and i can forsee a party to be held when my funeral ends. well, thats just sean. the one and hated to the core sean. a stab in the heart. a headshot or whatever. i jst wanna end this whole thing now. it's very tough and i cant hold on anymore. it has been 21 days.
if i say that in your eyes, im jst a nobody, i think im right? i dont know. i hope it isnt that way. tell me it isnt that way alright. i can change. from top to toe. maybe your heart belongs to another person alr, but for me, it will always contain you. i mean it. maybe the trust is alr gone, but evryth's not lost. i'll just keep going on. but one day, i'll just collapse.