Monday, November 05, 2007
im about to doze off on the computer table any moment from now.
i dont know why. i havent been able to sleep for the past few days.
2hrs of stoning everynight, before going to sleep aint good. it sures inflict more harm. hah.
training tday. wasnt that bad. i feel great but very tired.
im suppose to be in bed now and god knows why the hell im typing all these.
as usual, i couldnt close my eyes and have a good rest.
i think im abit.. gah i dont know that word.
holidays are supposed to be fulfilling and full of fun and everything isnt it.
i just dont feeel like that. not like last yr?
maybe all along, it was just my wishful thinking and all.
maybe it's just. one sided. maybe i just, got it all wrong.
are things lost never recovered? now i wish the time could turn back on me.
i wouldnt feel that miserable. and dont bother asking me anything.
like it or not, i tend to keep things to myself and suffer alone.
it stopped at 353. and it's 431 now.
will i ever get the chance to start counting agn?
i think i will never know.
retarded.
i hate sean teo. he's just. a bitch.
maybe something worse.
i dont know why. i havent been able to sleep for the past few days.
2hrs of stoning everynight, before going to sleep aint good. it sures inflict more harm. hah.
training tday. wasnt that bad. i feel great but very tired.
im suppose to be in bed now and god knows why the hell im typing all these.
as usual, i couldnt close my eyes and have a good rest.
i think im abit.. gah i dont know that word.
holidays are supposed to be fulfilling and full of fun and everything isnt it.
i just dont feeel like that. not like last yr?
maybe all along, it was just my wishful thinking and all.
maybe it's just. one sided. maybe i just, got it all wrong.
are things lost never recovered? now i wish the time could turn back on me.
i wouldnt feel that miserable. and dont bother asking me anything.
like it or not, i tend to keep things to myself and suffer alone.
it stopped at 353. and it's 431 now.
will i ever get the chance to start counting agn?
i think i will never know.
retarded.
i hate sean teo. he's just. a bitch.
maybe something worse.