Thursday, July 30, 2009
Today my friend was feeling frustrated. I attempted to cheer her up but instead i had to apologise for cheering her up. fml.
you think you're feeling screwed up? it's just you do not know what i am going through right now. i did not mention to you bcos you wouldnt care. i dont know. i hope you will be better tmr. dont think you will see this.
ok period. today was another boring day. and tmr is friday again. THATS LIKE A FUCKING WEEK GONE AGAIN. screw off.
i feel like a restricted worm. i wanna free myself of my own self restrictions. i wanna try what can i do when i do not come home from a night. i feel like a 21 instead of a 16. but i do stuffs that are like 10.
And im coming online too often. fuck life. i dont wanna live anymore.
(/edit) i feel my level of resilence dropping like a waterfall.
(//edit) i think it is so much better to be an introvert. youdont offend people with insulting words.
you think you're feeling screwed up? it's just you do not know what i am going through right now. i did not mention to you bcos you wouldnt care. i dont know. i hope you will be better tmr. dont think you will see this.
ok period. today was another boring day. and tmr is friday again. THATS LIKE A FUCKING WEEK GONE AGAIN. screw off.
i feel like a restricted worm. i wanna free myself of my own self restrictions. i wanna try what can i do when i do not come home from a night. i feel like a 21 instead of a 16. but i do stuffs that are like 10.
And im coming online too often. fuck life. i dont wanna live anymore.
(/edit) i feel my level of resilence dropping like a waterfall.
(//edit) i think it is so much better to be an introvert. youdont offend people with insulting words.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
The right place at the right time with the right opportunity.
I guess that wont happen to me right. Why wasnt I so critical of myself years ago. Naw we dont talk abt the past. Present is the key. right.
i dont like coming home now, it makes me think alot and seriously alot.
i cant bear to face the future. i perceive it to be a black hole that is gna suck me in and i remain stuck there forever.
just like sunwukong and the wdv thingy right.
Ri ben cun with company was good. that 20bucks spent was good too. the explicit stuffs were even fantastic.
sometimes it is the company i suppose.
and hi lorry. tanahmerah and bedok. HAHA.
i will go read the chem article review articles and i will go to sleep.
life seems so short for me. 24hrs are like, what, 10hrs? shrugs.
:(
I guess that wont happen to me right. Why wasnt I so critical of myself years ago. Naw we dont talk abt the past. Present is the key. right.
i dont like coming home now, it makes me think alot and seriously alot.
i cant bear to face the future. i perceive it to be a black hole that is gna suck me in and i remain stuck there forever.
just like sunwukong and the wdv thingy right.
Ri ben cun with company was good. that 20bucks spent was good too. the explicit stuffs were even fantastic.
sometimes it is the company i suppose.
and hi lorry. tanahmerah and bedok. HAHA.
i will go read the chem article review articles and i will go to sleep.
life seems so short for me. 24hrs are like, what, 10hrs? shrugs.
:(
Monday, July 27, 2009
Miss Fang just doesn't like me :(
I got 3 times 34 for math test le leh, then every time the 1 mark kena subtracted is like super retarded reason one fag.
I am so demoralized that i am going to stop typing nao.
bye.
(/edit) Im back. Im currently feeling very down. w/e i will be fine.
I cant wait to board the plane. at least i can get out of this undesirable place for a moment.
i dislike the competitveness yet i am one myself. i wonder how people think and feel about me.
i wonder how do i perceive myself to others? im rather sure is nothing positive hur.
i feel so shitty, im behavinglike the old times. my old me.
and that is a big no good. mama :(
i r gonna revise matrix i dont know how to find inverse. ad-bc.
sigh i seriously want to get out of this place now.
any listening ear available? perhaps, no.
I might be back later. depending on my mood.
(/edit) congratulations seanteo you have just done what you have not in 2 yrs. i seriously see no hope in life now.
i feel like such a failure. i fail, am failing, failed.
I got 3 times 34 for math test le leh, then every time the 1 mark kena subtracted is like super retarded reason one fag.
I am so demoralized that i am going to stop typing nao.
bye.
(/edit) Im back. Im currently feeling very down. w/e i will be fine.
I cant wait to board the plane. at least i can get out of this undesirable place for a moment.
i dislike the competitveness yet i am one myself. i wonder how people think and feel about me.
i wonder how do i perceive myself to others? im rather sure is nothing positive hur.
i feel so shitty, im behavinglike the old times. my old me.
and that is a big no good. mama :(
i r gonna revise matrix i dont know how to find inverse. ad-bc.
sigh i seriously want to get out of this place now.
any listening ear available? perhaps, no.
I might be back later. depending on my mood.
(/edit) congratulations seanteo you have just done what you have not in 2 yrs. i seriously see no hope in life now.
i feel like such a failure. i fail, am failing, failed.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Ha Ha Ha. I sink Mr Swee gives me motivation to write an LA Essay more than miss yeo does.
and triple yay i just completed the LA written assignment that we were asked to do over the wkends.
but i took an hr lol instead of 45min. oh well at least i finished it hoohah.
will edit this later, i shall go sound the horn in a few minutes time and i will go study physics.
Force on a conductor or w/e along tt line. pfft bye.
and triple yay i just completed the LA written assignment that we were asked to do over the wkends.
but i took an hr lol instead of 45min. oh well at least i finished it hoohah.
will edit this later, i shall go sound the horn in a few minutes time and i will go study physics.
Force on a conductor or w/e along tt line. pfft bye.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Self-discipline self-discipline who can give me self-discipline. :(
I need'em like desperately. Dont mind me here. Everyday I will be thinking and asking myself. What if i dont get out of here? Must i suffer for another 2 years? Or will the outside world be more of a suffering instead of here. For at least i know, i will be suffering for sure if i continue my weekend life like that. It is so detrimental i'd realise and i hope its not too late. Maybe it is..
It's like T3W5 from tmr onwards, 5wks more of studying in T3, should be arnd 4 due to some holidays and my hk trip, 1 wk of school holiday, 1 wk of school and (dno how many) weeks of study leave and we will all be sitting at the hall again. To think about it, we were just there like a few mnths ago isnt it. Sadly, it has been a year. But i gotta admit this year is so much of a better year than the last. With PW and being a little friendlier, i realise class is not that bad after all, (only to a certain few) Toward the others, i've no comments i guess. yall are just like the school. hah.
i guess one thing i will miss is the playing of the wardrobes at the back of the class. (right kellie? :D ) my coffeshop hahaha.
I sound like im reminsicing. -.- ohwell.
I need to focus. FOCUS. focus. FOCUSSSSSSSSSSS.
that's it bye earthlings. love.
I need'em like desperately. Dont mind me here. Everyday I will be thinking and asking myself. What if i dont get out of here? Must i suffer for another 2 years? Or will the outside world be more of a suffering instead of here. For at least i know, i will be suffering for sure if i continue my weekend life like that. It is so detrimental i'd realise and i hope its not too late. Maybe it is..
It's like T3W5 from tmr onwards, 5wks more of studying in T3, should be arnd 4 due to some holidays and my hk trip, 1 wk of school holiday, 1 wk of school and (dno how many) weeks of study leave and we will all be sitting at the hall again. To think about it, we were just there like a few mnths ago isnt it. Sadly, it has been a year. But i gotta admit this year is so much of a better year than the last. With PW and being a little friendlier, i realise class is not that bad after all, (only to a certain few) Toward the others, i've no comments i guess. yall are just like the school. hah.
i guess one thing i will miss is the playing of the wardrobes at the back of the class. (right kellie? :D ) my coffeshop hahaha.
I sound like im reminsicing. -.- ohwell.
I need to focus. FOCUS. focus. FOCUSSSSSSSSSSS.
that's it bye earthlings. love.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Alas the damn weekend is here. At least i will have 2 days to rest my body.
I feel so weary and everyth from the daily activities of life, which is mainly school. The worst part is you are falling asleep or rather you r aslp, and youre forced to pick yourself up before the teacher catches you sleeping. And i guess we, 4E people know who that is yeah.
It is living hell, period.
AND i didnt present ACE today. Look. It can be a good thing and it can be a bad thing, depends on how you look at it right. a half cup of water or the cup is half empty. i'd prefer the latter. ._.
MS FANG CHYE PIN WHERE IS OUR INTEGRATION TEST IT HAS BEEN 2 WEEKS.
ok this is random ya.
Today is the 24th of July. It's 2 months before i suffer at the hands of the wrath of the living hell i am in nao. :(
I think i need good friends arnd me, if not i will contd to 沦陷 to the deepest sea of abyss.
I am eating wonton noodles now. yay.
I shall go and think about some issues at hand before going to sleep.
I am very very very tired, and sick of life now.
My mum's saying i shd ctrl my spendings. And i agree to an elephant extent.
Bee.
I feel so weary and everyth from the daily activities of life, which is mainly school. The worst part is you are falling asleep or rather you r aslp, and youre forced to pick yourself up before the teacher catches you sleeping. And i guess we, 4E people know who that is yeah.
It is living hell, period.
AND i didnt present ACE today. Look. It can be a good thing and it can be a bad thing, depends on how you look at it right. a half cup of water or the cup is half empty. i'd prefer the latter. ._.
MS FANG CHYE PIN WHERE IS OUR INTEGRATION TEST IT HAS BEEN 2 WEEKS.
ok this is random ya.
Today is the 24th of July. It's 2 months before i suffer at the hands of the wrath of the living hell i am in nao. :(
I think i need good friends arnd me, if not i will contd to 沦陷 to the deepest sea of abyss.
I am eating wonton noodles now. yay.
I shall go and think about some issues at hand before going to sleep.
I am very very very tired, and sick of life now.
My mum's saying i shd ctrl my spendings. And i agree to an elephant extent.
Bee.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
hi i feel so unproductive this week. playtime more than worktime and im feeling so tired every now and then.
esp when theres sth that has relation with chinese. eg: HCL lesson and with CME being the last lesson of the day.
it just screws up my body's functioning process.
and my neck still hurts from the sleeping on the wardrobe at the back of the class.
i swear im never going to do so again. period.
and i think mr swee is so much better than miss _ _ _ fill in the blanks yrself, yall should know ha.
at least he doesnt tell us stuffs that are common sense to a common sensed human.
he tells us cool stuffs and productive stuffs and with he graduated from RJ 2 yrs ago, i guess believeing in him to guide me back into the right track of LA is a rather effective way.
I realise i am posting everynow and then. esp when i get home and finished my dinner,
maybe my mind triggers my thoughts after a meal.
I still feel rather traumatized and shocked over someissues.
i am experiencing some psychological traumatization and emotional problems suddenly.
WHY. F it. FML.
Okay i am going to bathe and revise math and complete the hmw that is due tmr.
ACE presentation tmr.
I hope i am presenting. I wanna get out of that rather sticky mess. So complicated :(
Bye earthlings.
esp when theres sth that has relation with chinese. eg: HCL lesson and with CME being the last lesson of the day.
it just screws up my body's functioning process.
and my neck still hurts from the sleeping on the wardrobe at the back of the class.
i swear im never going to do so again. period.
and i think mr swee is so much better than miss _ _ _ fill in the blanks yrself, yall should know ha.
at least he doesnt tell us stuffs that are common sense to a common sensed human.
he tells us cool stuffs and productive stuffs and with he graduated from RJ 2 yrs ago, i guess believeing in him to guide me back into the right track of LA is a rather effective way.
I realise i am posting everynow and then. esp when i get home and finished my dinner,
maybe my mind triggers my thoughts after a meal.
I still feel rather traumatized and shocked over someissues.
i am experiencing some psychological traumatization and emotional problems suddenly.
WHY. F it. FML.
Okay i am going to bathe and revise math and complete the hmw that is due tmr.
ACE presentation tmr.
I hope i am presenting. I wanna get out of that rather sticky mess. So complicated :(
Bye earthlings.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Hah Chem test is over, i think it is oh-kay.
lets apply some logical thinking analysis here. MCQs questions are to spur us on and allow us to achieve better grades for a particular test right? apparently, it didnt happen today.
the MCQs were so hardcore that sigh i think i lost 2 marks alr.
Maybe i can get back from the bonus, but ahh.
i think the chem test was really doable and i should have owned it. sighpfft.
I really need to buck up on my physics. period.
Bye i am going to do something constructive now,
lets apply some logical thinking analysis here. MCQs questions are to spur us on and allow us to achieve better grades for a particular test right? apparently, it didnt happen today.
the MCQs were so hardcore that sigh i think i lost 2 marks alr.
Maybe i can get back from the bonus, but ahh.
i think the chem test was really doable and i should have owned it. sighpfft.
I really need to buck up on my physics. period.
Bye i am going to do something constructive now,
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I am suppose to study my chemistry. Okay no i am done with it. I just dont unds simple cell.
The negative terminal is the negative electrode, which is the cathode! why other ppl say is the anode. :(
feel so demoralized then and i decided to come here and do all these lame stuffs.
luckily im not online on msn, ah if not gee g.
past few days have been rather great. PW was good, but i havent come up with the things to write for the report. so sorwee, i do tmr aight. :D
Angel VS Demon.
KLP SB was good too, a rather magnificent session. lorry left early :(
okay i am so going to sleep nao, if not i will be whining like today, and chemistry is on the 3rd period.
I dont pray, i hope i get desirable grades.
I am rather emo now.
I wanna tick back the clock.
BYE earthlings. di qiu ren vs hua ren vs ma lai ren.
so DIAO. HAHA.
Bee Bee
The negative terminal is the negative electrode, which is the cathode! why other ppl say is the anode. :(
feel so demoralized then and i decided to come here and do all these lame stuffs.
luckily im not online on msn, ah if not gee g.
past few days have been rather great. PW was good, but i havent come up with the things to write for the report. so sorwee, i do tmr aight. :D
Angel VS Demon.
KLP SB was good too, a rather magnificent session. lorry left early :(
okay i am so going to sleep nao, if not i will be whining like today, and chemistry is on the 3rd period.
I dont pray, i hope i get desirable grades.
I am rather emo now.
I wanna tick back the clock.
BYE earthlings. di qiu ren vs hua ren vs ma lai ren.
so DIAO. HAHA.
Bee Bee
Monday, July 20, 2009
I think i am going to self destruct soon.
I cant breathe. I wanna electrolyse myself but i am made up of ions that are not halide. Eg: sulphate ion and nitrate ion.
and i have no cation bcos im so negative. kaboom, boom.
No im not going to say the F word. Bye imy.
I cant breathe. I wanna electrolyse myself but i am made up of ions that are not halide. Eg: sulphate ion and nitrate ion.
and i have no cation bcos im so negative. kaboom, boom.
No im not going to say the F word. Bye imy.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
HI EVERYBODY I THINK I GOT A DAMN COOL PENCIL BOX NOW.
BUT MY SISTER TELL ME THAT IT IS OUT OF TREND ALREADY. LIKE IT IS DAMN TRENDY LAST TIME MAYBE 2 YEARS AGO BUT NO LONGER TRENDY NOW. SIGH.
MY CHEAPEST ASSET LEH I THINK. 2.50!
Okay but someone else has cheaper one HUR. but nvm, i think it is cool.
i think at least this is a slight change in me. i believe it is a good start
SO i manage to study chem at BK today alone. but aiya sustainability was only arnd 2plus hrs close to 3, i hope i unds more stuffs now
I electrolyse you hahahaha
OKAY IM GOING TO PACK MY BAG AND GO TO SLEEP NOW
AND HAPPY FACIAL HARMONY DAY EVERYBODY. OH NO I MEANT IT AS RACIAL.
then you will hear me being racist tmr again.
HOW DO INDIANS COMMUNICATE. I SHALL REVEAL THE ANSWER IN MY NEXT POST.
I DONT KNOW WHY I AM SO HIGH.
BYE.
i somehow agree with you, but i dunno. Have a nice harmonize day everyone :D
BUT MY SISTER TELL ME THAT IT IS OUT OF TREND ALREADY. LIKE IT IS DAMN TRENDY LAST TIME MAYBE 2 YEARS AGO BUT NO LONGER TRENDY NOW. SIGH.
MY CHEAPEST ASSET LEH I THINK. 2.50!
Okay but someone else has cheaper one HUR. but nvm, i think it is cool.
i think at least this is a slight change in me. i believe it is a good start
SO i manage to study chem at BK today alone. but aiya sustainability was only arnd 2plus hrs close to 3, i hope i unds more stuffs now
I electrolyse you hahahaha
OKAY IM GOING TO PACK MY BAG AND GO TO SLEEP NOW
AND HAPPY FACIAL HARMONY DAY EVERYBODY. OH NO I MEANT IT AS RACIAL.
then you will hear me being racist tmr again.
HOW DO INDIANS COMMUNICATE. I SHALL REVEAL THE ANSWER IN MY NEXT POST.
I DONT KNOW WHY I AM SO HIGH.
BYE.
i somehow agree with you, but i dunno. Have a nice harmonize day everyone :D
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Day out at Clarke Quay with iris daren and maureen.
and transportation cost me 30 bucks, -.- i srsly nd some course that teaches me how to control my finances. they r leaking like water.
and yeah. it was cool yo. talked abt life, mr L lol, and how can we dissolve into a wall and say hi to people that walks past. -.-
HAHA. and aint the initials of clarke quay CQ? yeh, then it was written as CO with a ~ below the O. -.- such acts of adorableness, :D
yeah and i think such thingys are productive :D
it propels you to work, motivates you to strive for greater heights and accomplishments, :D so, lets have more hahahaha.
but no more clarke quay pls. my pockets are burnt. boom poof.
aight im off to bed and i will see what i can do for tmr.
probably, i will... idk.
p/s I WANNA WATCH POTTER.
p/p/s I STILL WANNA WATCH POTTER WHY YOU DONT WANT WATCH POTTER.
p/p/p/s MSN WITH THEM IS FUN N COOL.
DOODNIGHT.
Iris: yalor, you amaze me with your awesomeness, and ive got no more flu. EH LEARN TO DRINK MILK and EAT CHOC. :D
and transportation cost me 30 bucks, -.- i srsly nd some course that teaches me how to control my finances. they r leaking like water.
and yeah. it was cool yo. talked abt life, mr L lol, and how can we dissolve into a wall and say hi to people that walks past. -.-
HAHA. and aint the initials of clarke quay CQ? yeh, then it was written as CO with a ~ below the O. -.- such acts of adorableness, :D
yeah and i think such thingys are productive :D
it propels you to work, motivates you to strive for greater heights and accomplishments, :D so, lets have more hahahaha.
but no more clarke quay pls. my pockets are burnt. boom poof.
aight im off to bed and i will see what i can do for tmr.
probably, i will... idk.
p/s I WANNA WATCH POTTER.
p/p/s I STILL WANNA WATCH POTTER WHY YOU DONT WANT WATCH POTTER.
p/p/p/s MSN WITH THEM IS FUN N COOL.
DOODNIGHT.
Iris: yalor, you amaze me with your awesomeness, and ive got no more flu. EH LEARN TO DRINK MILK and EAT CHOC. :D
Monday, July 13, 2009
ohmygod 2wks has past like zoom. la compre test down, chem test no more, math test was a breeze, no i shouldnt say that, later i dont do well ppl say i damn ego :(
haha aight and wts its like 2 mths to end of years, :( no i dwan it to come it just makes me nervous and makes me question my abilities and such.
what if i cant get out,
what if i rly cant get out,
what if i rly rly rly cant get out.
i think i will be damn sad.
then i see evryone successfully get out.
i will be even more sad.
no i must not let that happen.
i must not regret the outcome.
because i decide the outcome.
and not the outcome decides for itself.
yes.
aiyahhhhhhh. i dont know. im noob in evryth. :(
if china can win japan, why cant i fail math?
period.
ciao.
this is a post of rubbish, im wasting my time again oh rah
haha aight and wts its like 2 mths to end of years, :( no i dwan it to come it just makes me nervous and makes me question my abilities and such.
what if i cant get out,
what if i rly cant get out,
what if i rly rly rly cant get out.
i think i will be damn sad.
then i see evryone successfully get out.
i will be even more sad.
no i must not let that happen.
i must not regret the outcome.
because i decide the outcome.
and not the outcome decides for itself.
yes.
aiyahhhhhhh. i dont know. im noob in evryth. :(
if china can win japan, why cant i fail math?
period.
ciao.
this is a post of rubbish, im wasting my time again oh rah