Thursday, September 24, 2009
now now now it's less than a week to exams, and i feel the stress.
the stress of not being able to attempt an easy question on any subj,
coupled with the nonsensical talk (xcept for some highlights) today, my mood was real bad the whole day today, gah
wellwellwell, a jigsaw piece seems to be missing and it's preventing me from completing my aims and targets,
and that is smth called self-discipline. i need a strong and long-lasting one, and not just one which only lasts for the next 16 days.
I am an endothermic reactn, and this reactn absorbs stress, hah.
everyth seems so normal, the tide is low, the exam papers have not come to light, our lives stil continue on.
till then, it might be too late for me to even say, 'I regret it very much,'
No i cant say that, i cannot say that,
for i know my fate will be utterly sealed upon that moment and I become a limiting reactant.
today i once again threw all the papers and books that were on my table on the floor. nah im not de-stressing.
It has come to a point where i feel i need to do smth big, and this is just the appetizer. The main course has yet to be served.
I wonder how things will be like in the near future, i really wonder and my thoughts tell me that it aint a desirable thing unless... well
i think i had just wasted precious time here, when i could have gone to sleep or attempt more organic chem qns, but for now let me seek comfort in w/e i can find in a radius of 2metres.
I shall consider what to do after that. Im mentally hurt, very.
Till then,
the stress of not being able to attempt an easy question on any subj,
coupled with the nonsensical talk (xcept for some highlights) today, my mood was real bad the whole day today, gah
wellwellwell, a jigsaw piece seems to be missing and it's preventing me from completing my aims and targets,
and that is smth called self-discipline. i need a strong and long-lasting one, and not just one which only lasts for the next 16 days.
I am an endothermic reactn, and this reactn absorbs stress, hah.
everyth seems so normal, the tide is low, the exam papers have not come to light, our lives stil continue on.
till then, it might be too late for me to even say, 'I regret it very much,'
No i cant say that, i cannot say that,
for i know my fate will be utterly sealed upon that moment and I become a limiting reactant.
today i once again threw all the papers and books that were on my table on the floor. nah im not de-stressing.
It has come to a point where i feel i need to do smth big, and this is just the appetizer. The main course has yet to be served.
I wonder how things will be like in the near future, i really wonder and my thoughts tell me that it aint a desirable thing unless... well
i think i had just wasted precious time here, when i could have gone to sleep or attempt more organic chem qns, but for now let me seek comfort in w/e i can find in a radius of 2metres.
I shall consider what to do after that. Im mentally hurt, very.
Till then,